Lois Reisdorf's Story

Lois Reisdorf's Story
Name	Lois (Jory) Reisdorf
Period	Early SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976).
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Year

MAKING OF A CHILD SCIENTOLOGIST AND SEA ORG MEMBER

Lois (Jory) Reisdorf

I would like to state right off the bat that I seriously loved my parents and will never hold this against them. They were great and I had a deep love for them. My Mom, Bronwen Jory passed away from brain1. another part of the nervous system which receives and sends impulses to the body parts. (SPB) 2. a neuro-shock absorber. It has very little to do with thinking. (SH Spec 75, 6608C16) 3. a very mechanical rattletrap sort of a switchboard that’s been thrown together by you in order to translate thought into action and to coordinate energy. (5203CM03B) cancer in 1997 at the age of 58 and my step-Dad Neville Jory passed away in 2007 at the age of 67 from COPD/Emphysema. This was after more than 30 years working their butts off for Scientology. I was lucky enough to rejoin my family at the age of 22 and spent all the years from that age until their deaths with them and gave them 3 amazing grandsons who they adored. They were the best example of what one would think of as a Scientologist, they truly helped people.

As far back as I can remember, I was Scientologist. I grew up with no drugs and when I was sick or had problems it was always handled with Scientology – touch assistsAn assist which brings the patient's attention to injured or affected body areas. (HCOB 2 Apr 69), various processes, Dianetic auditing1. the application of Dn procedures to an individual to help him become well and happy. (DPB, p. 11) 2. the tracing of experience. (SH Spec 70, 6607C21) 3. Dianetic auditing includes as its basic principle, the exhaustion of all the painfully unconscious moments of a subject’s life. By eradicating pain from the life of an individual, the auditor returns the individual to complete rationality and sanity. (DTOT, p. 68) by my step-Dad. As a child I suffered from migraine headaches and never once had a pain killer and cannot remember ever taking “medicine”. It is still very hard for me to NOT use Scientology words to describe things and only in the last 2 years at the age of 56 do I have to rethink everything I have believed in, all my life. I have read almost every book about Scientology in the last 2 years, but specifically left the book Bare Faced Messiah until last as I honestly could not face what I was to learn about LRHL. Ron Hubbard…..it was much easier to read about all the abuse and what had become of the Sea OrgAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). and David Miscavige, than it was for me to read about LRHL. Ron Hubbard. Well, I finally finished it and all I can say is that it was shattering to me. I have since read Fair Game and it too was amazing. My personal stories of LRHL. Ron Hubbard will follow, and a lot of things finally make sense to me.

I was born in Durban, South Africa in 1960. In apartheid South Africa. My parents were looking for “something” and stumbled upon Scientology. My father, Bryan Lingwood, did not end up becoming a Scientologist, but my mother did. This eventually resulted in their divorce in the mid-1960’s. Life was pretty normal from what little I can remember but it started to radically change in 1965. My Dad was transferred to Johannesburg for his job, and Mom started taking courses at the Johannesburg (Joburg) Org and within months joined staff. This did not sit well with Dad and they started separating in 1966. After their separation Mom was still full-time at the Org, and in order to support 3 little girls she rented a big house and then sub-let to other Joburg Org staff members so I was surrounded by Scientologists and this included the Starkey’s, Von Pjeil’s, Chisholm’s and many other well-known Scientology families. All of us kids would play together.

I spent many hours at the Joburg Org, and during school holidays from age 6 til 9 would do the children commSlang, short for - communication courses. Friday nights were spent running around the Joburg Org with a bunch of other kids. We were Scientology kids, used the lingo and had a good understanding of it. I remember doing tone scale5. a scale which plots the descending spiral of life from full vitality and consciousness through half-vitality and half-consciousness down to death. (SA, p . 3 7 )...More drills at 6 years old in Joubert Park (which was downtown Joburg). The Org was located at 23 Hancock Street in 3 small houses, right off the park. I still remember the address!

Lois, her mother and two younger sisters

In about 1966 Neville Jory joined the Joburg Org after having just completed his SHSBCSaint Hill Special Briefing Course. A complete study of all the auditing materials and lectures up to the OT levels. Certification is a "Class VI" auditor. at Saint HillThe name of LRH's home in East Grinstead, Sussex, England. (BTB 12 Apr 72R). Mom and him fell in love and soon after got married. In 1968 Neville went to the [Apollo] and did his Class VIIIThe Class VIII Course teaches exact handling of all cases up to 100 per cent result, as well as Class VIII procedures, all case setup actions, all processes and corrective actions, as well as flubless Class VIII auditing. (Dianetics and Scientology Technical Dictionary (C) 1975) course with LRHL. Ron Hubbard and then returned back to the Joburg Org. By this time Mom and Neville had baby #4 and soon after baby #5. Neville became my beloved step-father. He was a very good Dad to us 3 girls and treated us as if we were his own. Not once in all my life did I feel that the 3 of us were any different from the next 3 kids they had together. (6 Kids altogether, last one born in 1975.)

In early 1970, Mom and Neville decided to buy a Franchise (Mission) in Durban, so we all went back to Durban and they started and ran their VERY successful franchise in Durban. I can remember it being a very fun, happy place. This is the place where many other subsequently famous Scientologists got into Scientology i.e. Corbett’s, Southworth’s etc. I could not wait to go to the franchise on Friday nights where I was now doing the adult commSlang, short for - communication-course; HQSAbbreviation for Hubbard Qualified Scientologist. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976) etc. However, I do remember them being VERY financially strapped ALL the time. I was an avid swimmer, field hockey player and had to always arrange my own lifts to and from my extra curricular activities. They worked all the time. But in South Africa, no matter how poor you were, you could always afford a nanny or two to look after us kids and cook. (During the apartheid era.) That was how they were able to cope with working at the mission full-time and me and my siblings.

It was during this time-period that I got all whiny and upset with my Mom that she was never there. So one day she got hold of me and told me that there was only 5 years left for the planet, and if she does not do her job by helping to clear the planet, then it’s going to blow-v. ''Slang'' unauthorized departure from an area. (HCOB 19 Jun 71 II)-up. This was the turning point for me. At first I was scared out of my mind3. a network of communications and pictures, energies and masses, which are brought into being by the activities of the thetan versus the physical universe or other thetans. The mind is a communication and control system between the thetan and his environment. (FOT, p. 56)...MORE but then became more responsible with duties at home and with my small siblings, I hardly ever whined again, I could not wait to become an adult like them and help clear the planet. I was fully on board, even though quite scared.

In 1972 at the age of 12, my Mom and Neville and I signed the Sea OrgAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). contract (the other kids were too young to sign). It took them almost a year to turn over the mission to someone and to get things in order for us to join the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). in Copenhagen, Denmark at AOSHEUScientology's Advanced Organization and Saint Hill, Europe.. It was a very exciting time for me, I could not wait. This was seriously what I thought I was meant to do. One of the biggest things that happened in this prep time – my biological father lost custody of us 3 girls and Neville adopted us. What my father went though is another story in itself. He lost his kids. To this day, I am the only one he has a loving relationship with. I was 12, next one was about 7 and his youngest daughter was around 5.

The family heads to the in Copenhagen

BTW – this father of mine (Bryan Lingwood), who was never a scientologist is the only parent still alive today, he is 81 years old and is in great physical and mental health and in fact acts as though he is in his 60’s – just goes to show!

In 1973 we embarked on a ship (yes a cruise! It was cheaper to travel then by ship than by air) called the Europa from Durban, South Africa, around the Cape of Good Hope and up the west coast of Africa through the Mediterranean to Trieste, Italy. It was amazing and the first time I had left SA. Growing up in apartheid SA, I had never seen television, there were no TV’s in the whole country! Talk about being in a bubble of Scientology, and then on top of that you are in the bubble of Apartheid South Africa – I was so naïve it was ridiculous. I had no clue about drugs either.

Our ages were – Me 12, sister 8, sister 6, brother 4, baby sister 3 – traipsing through Europe. We arrived in Copenhagen and all I can say is that I was so disappointed. It was ugly, dreary and cold. Here I had grown up in Africa for goodness sake, most probably had very rarely even worn a jersey. It got even worse once we were installed into the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). berthing and my siblings were put in the “nursery” it was a dark, cold, damp place in the basement and I am sure moldy. My two youngest siblings had major chest problems and were sick constantly.

I and my 2 sisters went to an International school and I had a postA position from which a terminal operates in an org, where one knows that somebody is at. (FO 2200) in the AOAbbreviation for Advanced Org. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). Organization whose function is to run the Clearing and OT Courses. (FO 1151) when I was not in school, kind of like an expeditor.

I hated it there and I was not happy. Within a couple of months an Apollo recruitment mission arrived and this was my out. I got recruited to be a messenger for LRHL. Ron Hubbard and I was ecstatic. I thought this was going to be the best thing since sliced bread; I could be an adult and help save the planet in a big way.

I arrived on the Apollo at 13 (late 1973) years old at midnight, alone, with no family and no-one I knew. I wore white bobby socks, a bright yellow skirt ,red shirt and red buckle shoes. I had never sworn in my life and frankly did not even know what swear words were, I basically knew nothing about sex; had never seen TV; I did not even know about such things as the Vietnam War which was raging during 1973. I think back on all of this and I shudder. What was I getting myself into. To be a messenger for LRHL. Ron Hubbard and my life would change forever….

Within a year, my parents and the 4 kids left the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). and returned to South Africa and LRHL. Ron Hubbard gave them special permission to leave and start Missions there. Mom was pregnant with child #6, they had visa problems and Dad had been COAbbreviation for 1. Commanding Officer. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The org is commanded by the Commanding Officer (SO orgs). (HCO PL 7 Mar 72) AOAbbreviation for Advanced Org. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). Organization whose function is to run the Clearing and OT Courses. (FO 1151) and had been busted….so things got hairy for them.

I on the other hand, was now fully ensconced into being an LRHL. Ron Hubbard Messenger and life on the Apollo. The first few months were very rough for me; crying every night in my bunk bed. But after a year I was fully on board…..

MY LIFE WITH LRHL. Ron Hubbard (1973-1980)

Most people perceive things differently. If there is a car accident and there are 3 witnesses, sometimes all 3 could see a different color car etc. My stories with LRHL. Ron Hubbard are from my perspective and I am very sure other messengers may perceive things differently. These are also stories from the best I can recollect them as a very young, naïve person and from my perspective at the time. Obviously now being middle aged and WAY wiser, I can look back and see how I acted or perceived things through rose colored glasses.

I am also very lucky that my beloved mother, kept every letter I wrote her. I am therefore able to remember things which I may not otherwise been able to, had it not been for the letters. These letters were only given to me in the last few years, I had no idea they had existed. When I first got them I was only able to read 1 or 2 of them as it was very disturbing to me to read about how I “was” as a messenger.

When I first arrived on the Apollo as this innocent, naïve child – I was immediately put on the CMOAbbreviation for Commodore's Messenger Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). EPFAbbreviation for 1. Estates Project Force. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Estates Project Force handles premises, grounds, cleaning, repair, painting or other maintenance cycles. (FO 3165). This entailed cleaning the messenger’s cabins and washing and ironing their clothes (not in washing machines but in buckets). I had one incident when I burnt a blouse, my punishment was to wear a sign in the front and back which stated “I AM AN OVERT PRODUCT PRODUCER”. I remember being completely embarrassed and had to wear it for days until I was out of Doubt or Liability…………..

The first few weeks I cried every night in my bunk in the awful women’s dorm where the bunkbeds were 3 high. It was a terrible dark, damp, windowless place and reminded me of being in a tomb. The men’s dorm was way worse though….

It seemed to me that pretty much all the people I dealt with seemed to be a bit angry and serious. I thought Scientologists were these amazing beings who had such ARC1. a word from the initial letters of Affinity, Reality, Communication which together equate to Understanding. It is pronounced by stating its letters, A-R- C. To Scientologists it has come to mean good feeling, love or friendliness, such as “He was in ARC with his friend.” One does not, however, fall out of ARC, he has an ARC break. (LRH Def. Notes)...more. Boy was I wrong. Some of the messengers at that time were just not really nice to me either, with their noses stuck up in the air. That was later to change, but it was a hard road. I wanted to leave but where was I going to go if I wanted to leave – my family were in the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). in EU and quite frankly I could not stand that place either. So one day, I made the decision that I just had to pull up my bootstraps and become a successful messenger and make it. That is exactly what happened.

My first encounter with LRHL. Ron Hubbard was when I finally earned myself the status to be “on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109)” (meaning I was with LRHL. Ron Hubbard to runUndergo processing. (Science of Survival, p.75) messages around the ship). However I was a “ghost”. I was assigned to one of the senior messengers and I had to follow her wherever she went and watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) what she did. It was called “ghosting”. LRHL. Ron Hubbard did not even acknowledge my existence until later on. You were seriously a “ghost”. However, whenever we were not with LRHL. Ron Hubbard I was allowed to then ask the senior messenger any questions. This system actually worked well. No amount of studying on how to be a messenger in a course room could have prepared one for the task. After a certain amount of time, you as the “ghost” could then start doing small things, like holding LRHL. Ron Hubbard’s ashtray, or lighting his cigarette, or whatever – usually during this time he would then ask who you are and have some sort of commSlang, short for - communication with you.

But unfortunately for me, LRHL. Ron Hubbard had just had his motorcycle accident and badly hurt his shoulder, so my first encounter was seriously a very upset and in pain person who was yelling at everyone and even the most seasoned messengers were in a state most of the time. It was shocking to me that he was in such a bad mood all the time and yelled. I was scared out of my mind3. a network of communications and pictures, energies and masses, which are brought into being by the activities of the thetan versus the physical universe or other thetans. The mind is a communication and control system between the thetan and his environment. (FOT, p. 56)...MORE of him. He basically lived in a big red chair with pillows stuffed here and there and he could never get comfortable. This shoulder problema problem is postulate-counter-postulate, terminal-counter-terminal, force-counter-force. It’s one thing versus another thing. You’ve got two forces or two ideas which are interlocked of comparable magnitude and the thing stops right there. All right, now with these two things one stuck against the other you get a sort of a timelessness, it floats in time. (SH Spec 82, 6111C21) 2 . a problem is a postulate-counter-postulate resulting in indecision. That is the first manifestation of problems, and the first consequence of a problem is indecision. (SH Spec 27, 6107C11) 3 . a multiple confusion. (SH Spec 26X, 6107C03) 4 . an intention counter-intention that worries the preclear. (HCOB 23 Feb 61) 5 . a problem is the conflict arising from two opposing intentions. A present time problem is one that exists in present time, in a real universe. (HCOB 3 Jul 59) 6 . something which is persisting, the as-is-ness of which cannot be attained easily. (PRO 16, 5408CM20) continued to plague him until the last time I saw him, eventually becoming bursitis. The other thing about all this that has fascinated me is that he never asked for touch assist or anything to help the pain, he just endured it.

By the time I was allowed to be a normal messenger he was way better and then things became tolerable. I got over being scared of him and ended up having a pretty good relationship over the next years. I also made friends with my fellow messengers and a few of them are still my best friends today and we consider each other “sisters”. I got over the intimidation I had felt earlier. We were a tight group as we experienced things no other SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). members could have ever experienced, being with LRHL. Ron Hubbard around the clock and knowing personal details about him. It was extremely important that being a messenger you did not talk about him to others; it was severely ingrained in our heads. Everything was also on a “need to know” basis.

I quickly got through the required courses to be a Senior Messenger and being successful on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109), I became a Senior Messenger in 1975. Our watches consisted of 3 messengers on duty for 6 hours, so at the very least we had to have 12 messengers to cover a 24 hour period, but we had to have more in casethe whole sum of past by-passed charge. (HCOB 19 Aug 63) someone got sick etc. so there was an endless amount of “new” messengers. Most of them never made it and would last a few weeks or a few months. It was not a job for the faint at heart and as a result many did not make it. Most of us were females and the only male messengers on the Apollo were David Rossouw (the most successful male messenger) and Marc Yager (who never became a senior messenger). Sure, there were others but they were not around long. Looking back on this, my logical explanation as to whyThat basic outness found which will lead to a recovery of stats. (HCO PL 13 Oct 70 II) is because females tend to be more service orientated than males, but who knows, maybe there was another reason.

By the way, David Miscavige was never a messenger and not even in the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). during the Apollo years. There is way more to come about him.

MYTHS ABOUT LRHL. Ron Hubbard o I never saw him ever take “drugs”. The only time I knew he was on some sort of medication was during his 2 heart attack recoveries the first one I experienced with him was in 1975 and he recovered from that one at the Hilton hotel in Curacao. The 2nd one was in 1978 while we were in La Quinta and he was making movies. He did take vitamins and cal-mag. o I never saw him ever drink alcohol. o He lived very modestly. Only had about 8 pairs of pants; shirts etc. His furniture wherever he lived was very modest – well-made and of good quality but nothing over the top. His cars were 2nd hand. He did spend money on camera equipment, music equipment and had a collection of guns and a few musical instruments here and there. One example of his frugality was in La Quinta, California and he was going to have lunch with one of his lawyers (I believe), which was highly unusual and the Household Unit wanted to make lobster, which he had a fit over because it was way too expensive. Just one example. o I never saw or experienced any sexual anything with him. In fact, he was just the opposite. I have no reason to lie about this. I have come out with all the shit in my life and if there had been anything inappropriate I would say something. Others may have experienced something different, but not me. o LRHL. Ron Hubbard and Mary Sue lived separately. They had connected cabins on the Apollo and in La Quinta they had separate bedrooms in the Cabana, which was separate from his main house. In between their bedrooms was sort of a kitchen area. o I never saw any scars on his body other than maybe acne or chickenpox scars on his face and I gave him a lot of backrubs. Nothing whatsoever. This is in reference to his claims of being badly wounded during WWII, (ref. Bare Faced Messiah). o I never saw him eat like a glutton. He pretty much ate homemade healthy food at that time. I never once saw him go to any fast food joint. o Even though he was overweight he was more of a muscular type of fat. He had a firm body if that makes sense. He was tall, and a strong build. o He did type with only a few fingers and he was very fast. o LRHL. Ron Hubbard auditedThe application of Scientology processes and procedures to someone by a trained auditor. (Dianetics & Scientology Technical Dictionary (C) 1975) daily and I seriously doubt he did all this to “con” everyone. Maybe he had convinced himself completely after initially “making it up”, I will never know. But from my experience of being with him daily for 7-8 years, he believed completely. Seriously, if one wanted to “con” the world whyThat basic outness found which will lead to a recovery of stats. (HCO PL 13 Oct 70 II) would you then auditThe application of Scientology processes and procedures to someone by a trained auditor. (Dianetics & Scientology Technical Dictionary (C) 1975) yourself or be auditedThe application of Scientology processes and procedures to someone by a trained auditor. (Dianetics & Scientology Technical Dictionary (C) 1975) every single day. o He was a workaholic. He never “took time off” or “slept in” or went on “vacation”. He was on a mission and worked at it constantly. He averaged about 5-6 hours sleep a night. I once suggested to him that he needed to take a holiday – and all that got me was him being furious that I could even suggest that. He had work to do…….

So now that I got those out of way, here are some stories of times that I experienced with LRHL. Ron Hubbard on the Apollo.

APOLLO

Maybe towards the end of 1974, I was running a message to someone on the ship. I cannot recall what it was about, but I goofed up the message and got it wrong. LRHL. Ron Hubbard was furious and I had to be taken off watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) and his orders were for me to give and receive 40 hours of Op Pro By Dup (objectives) – so a total of 80 hours. Once I was done, I could return to watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109). I believe it made a difference as I virtually never got another message wrong.

One evening I was on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) and he was at dinner in his dining room. He called me in and told me to go down to the crew dining room and bring up a plate of food. I did that. He then asked me if I would eat it. Yes, I said, and he promptly assigned me a conditionA condition is an operating state. (SH Spec 62, 6505C25) of treason(Below enemy) is defined as betrayed after trust. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). due to the fact that he thought the food was atrocious and if I would go ahead and eat it, then I was treasonous because I did not do anything about it. The food on the ship was generally atrocious.

In another incident, I got word from Mary Sue’s Assistant Nikki Merwin, that the GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) were after my parents who were at AOSHEUScientology's Advanced Organization and Saint Hill, Europe., Dad had become the COAbbreviation for 1. Commanding Officer. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The org is commanded by the Commanding Officer (SO orgs). (HCO PL 7 Mar 72) AOAbbreviation for Advanced Org. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). Organization whose function is to run the Clearing and OT Courses. (FO 1151) (on the Kastleholm ship) and he was in trouble, but also due to them having Visa problems; Mom being pregnant with child #6; Sister #5 at 3 years old had been hit by a truck on the dock in Copenhagen (she ended up being okay); and obviously problems with the AOAbbreviation for Advanced Org. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). Organization whose function is to run the Clearing and OT Courses. (FO 1151). Apparently the GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) were planning on declaring my Dad an SPSuppressive Person: 2. a person who rewards only down statistics and never rewards an up statistic. He goofs up or vilifies any effort to help anybody and particularly knifes with violence anything calculated to make human beings more powerful or intelligent. A suppressive automatically and immediately will curve any betterment activity into something evil or bad...More or something of the sort. I was in a complete state and devastated. A couple hours later I had to be on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109), so went on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) and LRHL. Ron Hubbard immediately knew there was something wrong with me. I could not hold myself back, so told him the story while crying (which was something a messenger could NEVER do – i.e. no casethe whole sum of past by-passed charge. (HCOB 19 Aug 63) on postA position from which a terminal operates in an org, where one knows that somebody is at. (FO 2200)), but I couldn’t help myself. LRHL. Ron Hubbard promptly got more info via another messenger, found out the story and issued orders that the Jory Family can be sent back to South Africa to runUndergo processing. (Science of Survival, p.75) Missions, he wrote a letter in this regard. I was SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). relieved. My handling was that he called for my PC1. a person who, through Scientology processing, is finding out more about himself and life. (The Phoenix Lectures, p. 20) 2. a spiritual being who is now on the road to becoming Clear, hence preclear. (HCOB 5 Apr 69) 3. one who is discovering things about himself and who is becoming clearer. (HCO PL 21 Aug 63) folders and then C/S2. the C/S is the case supervisor. He has to be an accomplished and properly certified auditor and a person trained additionally to supervise cases...MORE’ed me for a cleanup. One day I had a series of messages to the engine room and LRHL. Ron Hubbard was furious at the engineers, but I cannot remember whyThat basic outness found which will lead to a recovery of stats. (HCO PL 13 Oct 70 II). One of the last messages I had in this string was to slap the Chief Engineer, Dave Murphy across the face for insubordination to LRHL. Ron Hubbard. This is the only time I ever physically hit someone. The one thing I can say is that there was little physical violence on crew. Reading about what DM has done to his staff, has been very shocking to me as I never experienced anything like that when I was in the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976)..

Another incident is one night I was on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) from midnight to 6:00AM, once I was off watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) it was time to go to bed. A couple other messengers (who had been on the midnight with me) decided to go onto the Sundeck to sleep up there and get suntanned. Sometimes the crew did things like this as it could get extremely hot in the dorms. They would actually sleep in the lifeboats. Anyway, I went up there and fell asleep, but I got completely sunburnt, especially on my face. The next watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) I was on, LRHL. Ron Hubbard got so mad at me for getting so badly sunburnt (it was pretty bad), and me being a redhead and all. He assigned me a conditionA condition is an operating state. (SH Spec 62, 6505C25) of Treason for this.

I did experience the “Rock Festival” in Funchal but I was on liberty that day so was not on the ship when the rocks were thrown at the Apollo by the locals. This is explained very well in the book Fair Game by Steve Cannane. I was one of the crew who was onshore and got to the Hilton Hotel and eventually taken by the pilot boat to the Apollo which was out at anchor. This was an extremely exciting day/night with all the drama going on, to say the least. I had never seen the crew so “uptoned”. We had an all-hands on deck in the middle of the night to load all the produce on board from barges and then sail away with no lights on into the blackness of the night, on our way to the other side of the Atlantic.

We had a great trip across the Atlantic, and in fact had a huge party onboard, I think it was crossing the date lineThe military type of organization form whereby there is a definite ascending and descending chain of command. Orders pass from top management down the line of command and compliances and data pass on up without by-passing the chain of command. (Modern Management Defined (c) L. Ron Hubbard, 1976) – well that night LRHL. Ron Hubbard came down to the party with armfuls of alcohol for all the crew. It was a drunken night of partying to say the least. (But I was still a naïve little girl and did not partake in the drunkenness.) The trip was otherwise uneventful, no bad weather and lots of dolphins.

Things took a big turn when trying to go into Charleston, SC. We were a few miles off the coast and could see the lights of the land in the distance. I was on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) when LRHL. Ron Hubbard was on the Bridge1. the route to Clear, the Bridge , which we call the Classification, Gradation and Awareness Chart. (Aud 107 ASNO) 2. a term originating in early Dn days to symbolize travel from unknowingness to revelation. (Aud 72 ASNO). when the GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) calls started coming in on the radio, that he should not go to the USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). because the IRS and whoever else were waiting for him on the docks. He was furious and there was a lot of yelling into the radio and between him and Mary Sue. Eventually Mary Sue won and we turned around made headway to Bermuda. He was so pissed.

We then started our way around the Caribbean and Bahamas. It was fun for the crew as the islands were all fascinating and we truly had some fun times on our liberties. We quite often would get 2 rooms at a local nice hotel (always on the beach) and the guys would stay in one and girls in the other and we would just have a wonderful time taking advantage of the hotel/beach/pools etc. The SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). was not all bad in those days and quite frankly, we were all quite young and had mostly regular liberties (every 2 weeks) and would just have fun after working very hard.

It was during this time that we messengers got our new uniforms. Our short white shorts and tie-around the waist white shirts. Many people have asked me whyThat basic outness found which will lead to a recovery of stats. (HCO PL 13 Oct 70 II) we had these uniforms as if there was some nefarious reason by LRHL. Ron Hubbard for this. I seriously don’t know. All I know is that we were now in very hot climates; it was very much the style/fashion in those days and LRHL. Ron Hubbard really did like to make an “effect”. He had started going ashore quite a bit doing photography so we were traipsing around the islands taking photos and he had a bevy of young ladies in hot pants following behind him. I guess one could get the wrong idea from that. Mary Sue was not happy at all about this. I think Mike has included the photo of me in this uniform with LRHL. Ron Hubbard – Years ago I would never have allowed this photo of my butt to be seen by anyone but now I am old enough to not care… Hahaha….

There was a Dutch Navy ship that seemed to follow us from port to port, they were all long haired, good looking men and they were absolutely fascinated by the Apollo due to all the good looking girls aboard. I think back on that and I suppose we were such an unusual sight. But unfortunately for them, they did not get anywhere with the girls, at least that I knew of.

One of the most unusual jobs we had as messengers on the ship was at any time a crewman could find a messenger (who was not on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109)) and have that messenger watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) and confirm that the crewman killed cockroach nests and the crewman would earn money for doing that, it may have been as high as $10, which was a lot of $ in those days! The cockroaches were everywhere on the ship and so to handle that, LRHL. Ron Hubbard put this system in. Mostly the men did this right before they had liberty to make extra money – but for us girls (mostly) it was horrible to watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) the person do this. Usually the roaches were in cold, damp places, like down in a hold or someplace like that and I remember having to climb over boxes and then watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) the person do this. Later he instituted a similar game for crew but this time it was in the desert in California and this time it involved rattle snakes on our properties.

As a messenger we did everything with LRHL. Ron Hubbard. Including, putting him to bed, getting him up in the morning and helping him set-up his auditingThe application of Scientology processes and procedures to someone by a trained auditor. (Dianetics & Scientology Technical Dictionary (C) 1975) sessions, before and after. We helped to dress him. He went on daily walks around the ship out on the deck. The only times there was not a messenger with him was when him and Mary Sue would have their meals in their dining room but there was always one or two messengers stationed right outside the door. When he was asleep or in session there was always at least one messenger outside his door. I remember being on the midnight watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) and often falling asleep outside his bedroom as it was quite warm against the bulkhead and if we were out at sea, the rolling of the ship.

After every “watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) of 6 hours or more” the one group of messengers would “turnover” the watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) to the next set of messengers. We would tell them everything that happened during the previous hours. As messengers we also kept log books of every message sent. They were quite heavy green hard covered logs. I am sure all these logs are well kept in archives as they would be a trove of info on what happened on a daily basis with LRHL. Ron Hubbard. I specifically remember making doodles in the logs when I was particularly bored. I never thought they would be kept.

He had frequent bouts of anger1. true anger is a hate hold. At exactly 1.5 on the tone scale we have a total ridge. It’s hate. When we move a little above or a little below 1.5 we get a dispersal. (5904C08) 2. anger is simply the process of trying to hold everything still. (5203CM09A) at one thing or another. This is where it became especially important to be a good messenger and whyThat basic outness found which will lead to a recovery of stats. (HCO PL 13 Oct 70 II) many did not make it. One had to remain calm under the most extreme anger1. true anger is a hate hold. At exactly 1.5 on the tone scale we have a total ridge. It’s hate. When we move a little above or a little below 1.5 we get a dispersal. (5904C08) 2. anger is simply the process of trying to hold everything still. (5203CM09A) and as teenagers you really had to have the “confront” to handle this. You also had to come up with solutions fast and furiously or be directly in the lineThe military type of organization form whereby there is a definite ascending and descending chain of command. Orders pass from top management down the line of command and compliances and data pass on up without by-passing the chain of command. (Modern Management Defined (c) L. Ron Hubbard, 1976) of fire. That is whyThat basic outness found which will lead to a recovery of stats. (HCO PL 13 Oct 70 II) the Senior Messengers were senior. We were the ones who could handle this and think on our feet the fastest. I truly believe that this training has put me in good stead in my later years in life.

Additionally, when we ran our messages we also had to come up with solutions to whatever the problema problem is postulate-counter-postulate, terminal-counter-terminal, force-counter-force. It’s one thing versus another thing. You’ve got two forces or two ideas which are interlocked of comparable magnitude and the thing stops right there. All right, now with these two things one stuck against the other you get a sort of a timelessness, it floats in time. (SH Spec 82, 6111C21) 2 . a problem is a postulate-counter-postulate resulting in indecision. That is the first manifestation of problems, and the first consequence of a problem is indecision. (SH Spec 27, 6107C11) 3 . a multiple confusion. (SH Spec 26X, 6107C03) 4 . an intention counter-intention that worries the preclear. (HCOB 23 Feb 61) 5 . a problem is the conflict arising from two opposing intentions. A present time problem is one that exists in present time, in a real universe. (HCOB 3 Jul 59) 6 . something which is persisting, the as-is-ness of which cannot be attained easily. (PRO 16, 5408CM20) was. As a messenger, you could not just report back robotically and this entailed many times, coaxing the correct answer from whomever you were running a message to and/or demanding that they fix the problema problem is postulate-counter-postulate, terminal-counter-terminal, force-counter-force. It’s one thing versus another thing. You’ve got two forces or two ideas which are interlocked of comparable magnitude and the thing stops right there. All right, now with these two things one stuck against the other you get a sort of a timelessness, it floats in time. (SH Spec 82, 6111C21) 2 . a problem is a postulate-counter-postulate resulting in indecision. That is the first manifestation of problems, and the first consequence of a problem is indecision. (SH Spec 27, 6107C11) 3 . a multiple confusion. (SH Spec 26X, 6107C03) 4 . an intention counter-intention that worries the preclear. (HCOB 23 Feb 61) 5 . a problem is the conflict arising from two opposing intentions. A present time problem is one that exists in present time, in a real universe. (HCOB 3 Jul 59) 6 . something which is persisting, the as-is-ness of which cannot be attained easily. (PRO 16, 5408CM20) – like what is your solution to problema problem is postulate-counter-postulate, terminal-counter-terminal, force-counter-force. It’s one thing versus another thing. You’ve got two forces or two ideas which are interlocked of comparable magnitude and the thing stops right there. All right, now with these two things one stuck against the other you get a sort of a timelessness, it floats in time. (SH Spec 82, 6111C21) 2 . a problem is a postulate-counter-postulate resulting in indecision. That is the first manifestation of problems, and the first consequence of a problem is indecision. (SH Spec 27, 6107C11) 3 . a multiple confusion. (SH Spec 26X, 6107C03) 4 . an intention counter-intention that worries the preclear. (HCOB 23 Feb 61) 5 . a problem is the conflict arising from two opposing intentions. A present time problem is one that exists in present time, in a real universe. (HCOB 3 Jul 59) 6 . something which is persisting, the as-is-ness of which cannot be attained easily. (PRO 16, 5408CM20) X. It required investigating as well and doing an analysis. All of this was training for our future roles in management. Many a messenger was busted from watches for not doing the above. You could not come back with the response unless you knew it was fixed or there was a solution. It was especially hard for me when the messages being runUndergo processing. (Science of Survival, p.75) were about the engine room and/or the Bridge1. the route to Clear, the Bridge , which we call the Classification, Gradation and Awareness Chart. (Aud 107 ASNO) 2. a term originating in early Dn days to symbolize travel from unknowingness to revelation. (Aud 72 ASNO). – I really felt out of my depth when it came to these areas as I just did not have a clue. But somehow I “faked” my way through it all.

I also had problems when he was on “photo shoots”. In those days you really had to be adept at changing film in a black bag – a bag whereby you put your hands through two holes and then blindly changed the roll of film correctly! Heaven forbid if you could 1. Not do it fast enough or 2. Did not close the camera properly or 3. Put the roll of film in incorrectly. This would have all resulted in a major flap and him being mad as hell.

The biggest problems I remember on the ship were with his personal Household Unit. Mostly with his clothes smelling, but honestly I could never smell any bad smells. This resulted in whoever was on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109), having to now wash all his clothes in buckets. Obviously the laundry person was in deep shit, so we had to do it and bypass them. Sometimes I remember rinsing his clothes about 15-20 times to get out the “smell”. One also had to come up with the “whyThat basic outness found which will lead to a recovery of stats. (HCO PL 13 Oct 70 II)”. I suppose this is whyThat basic outness found which will lead to a recovery of stats. (HCO PL 13 Oct 70 II) there were so many Flag Orders on how to clean this or that due to these “smell” problems. Sometimes the “smells” were through air vents and then all the vents had to be cleaned. Those were not nice times. I remember so well LRHL. Ron Hubbard’s butler at the time – Rick Sheehey – he was a great guy and tried his best but boy would he get yelled at for not having his clothes in order, or ready, or smelling. I always felt sorry for him.

The really funny thing about him being so sensitive to smells is that in later years when we were in the USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). and he was in temporary locations (with maybe only 10 people maximum and sometimes as little as 3 other people) – living in some rented apartment, he never had these “smell” problems and really didn’t complain about much. I am not sure who told me this, but the reason he apparently was so sensitive to smells is because he was so OTOperating Thetan - 7. this state of being is attained by drills and familiarity after the state of Clear has been obtained. A real OT has no reactive bank, is cause over matter, energy, space, time and thought and is completely free. (HCOB 12 Jul 65)...More and therefore had these “body” problems. I just accepted this but honestly, it was just against everything I knew about scientology – he had constant body problems.

He was a definite hypochondriac.

But on the other hand there were many times he was great. He had a wonderful sense of humor and would often tease us messengers in a fun way. He also cared about us. In ‘75 (before we left the ship) I went on leave to South Africa for a few weeks and when I came back he wanted to see all of my photos of my family and of animals as we had visited a game reserve. Another time, I wore a little medal around my neck (the only piece of jewelry I owned at the time) – it was a bronze medal for a ballroom dancing competition I had been in (when I was a little girl, maybe 12). He was very interested in it and soon after put on some music and started dancing with me around his office…..I think it was a jive.

To keep his hands and arms in shape, he would put on music in the office and then take a piece of newspaper in each hand and then scrunch it up while jigging around. It was quite funny.

I will end-off this chapter by saying that some of the best years in the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). for me, were on the Apollo. Even though being a messenger was an extremely hard job for a young person, our jobs got much more serious and important after we left the ship. Even though there were hard times, there was a very close “comradeship” amongst all the crew. I know that prior to me going on the Apollo there was over boarding happening and some weird stuff, but things were not too strange when I was there. It was more of an adventure shared by 200 or so people.

PART 3 – LRHL. Ron Hubbard MOVES TO THE USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). 1975 to end of 1976

One of the things that really surprised me while writing this part is everything happened in such a short amount of time. While living it, it seemed to take forever, but now being older…boy it all went so fast. It was just over a year.

I started writing quite prolifically to my mother once we moved to the USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976).. I had more time due to the circumstances and I wrote all the way from 1975 until the middle of 1981. I have only recently been able to read these letters and the one underlying theme throughout, with every letter, was how much I desperately loved my family and missed them so much. All of these letters were “security checked” so there was no info about where I was (other than Florida), and no “secret” info about LRHL. Ron Hubbard, but I alluded to things and was therefore able to remember what was going on at that time. Here are a few quotes from the end of my letters. Reading these letters brought me to tears.

“If you can’t buy a sewing machine for me, you can buy me some clothes or shoes, my shoes are getting scarce” “Mom is there any possible way you could send me some goodies, pantyhose, undies, bras. I’m sort of running out of those” “I luv you both so much, and miss you lots & lots & lots.” “Sorry I haven’t written for so long. Yes, we are landbased and boy is it great, I mean it is 100x better than any other sea org house or org at all. We have a huge building with a swimming pool, gymnasium, about 300 bedrooms, ballrooms, huge lecture rooms. I mean it is so fantastic, I couldn’t believe my eyes. I have a room with one other messenger, wall to wall carpeting, dressing table etc. etc.….” “Anyway, I must sign off now, and go to bed as I am very tired and just got off watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109). It is 0600 in the early morning. So goodnight. I love you lots and lots and miss you lots. It’s going to be another year until I see you all. LOTS & LOTS of LOVE, Your Eldest Daughter, Lois” “Well Mommy I must go now, and I love you very very very much, please write soon. Tons of Love, Lowie” “Well, Mom I have chatted and chatted, but I feel like talking to you lots!! And I love you so much; I have no words to explain it. I feel so close to you, like never before and one day I would love to have you to myself for a day or two and we can talk, miss you tons and love you forever, my love forever, Lowie” “Scot, Doranne and Louveigne – Hi my babies (my big babies) – I love and miss all of you so very much and I have a feeling that I may be able to visit you all soon and I can’t wait!!! You are all growing up so fast!!” “Thanks so much for the wonderful letter you sent me; it puts me on Cloud 30!!! It really makes me feel like I am with you and that neat stuff.” “Would you please send me your phone number, I really would like to call you someday, it would be so nice, as I really miss you Mommy. I just can’t explain the amount of affinity1. the feeling of love or liking for something or someone. Affinity is a phenomena of space in that it expresses the willingness to occupy the same place as the thing which is loved or liked...more for you.”

DAYTONA BEACH 1975

I was not physically with LRHL. Ron Hubbard when he left the ship and arrived in Daytona Beach, Fla in 1975. I was already there and met up with him in Daytona. The plan was for the management staff, external communications etc. to be in New York which was called RONY – (Relay Office NY); ship crew to stay with the ship to wherever its destination was and then for all NON-USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). citizens and those under 16 years of age to go to Daytona. I was in 2 of those categories – underage and non-USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). – so ended up in Daytona Beach. Not all the messengers were in Daytona, some may have gone to Rony (Relay Office New York) and some with the ship.

The Neptune motel on Daytona Beach was taken over by us and that is where the Daytona crew lived and worked. LRHL. Ron Hubbard got an apartment close by. I remember being very excited to arrive in the USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976).. I especially remember the great food (coming from the ship this was a HUGE deal) and for me, who had never seen TV, TV was amazing. I spent most of my time after standing watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109), watching TV and especially cartoons…..I was so enthralled and had loved comic books as a kid, so seeing my comic characters come alive was amazing. Can you imagine that someone in 1975 had never seen cartoons on TV…..?

We were at the motel in secret, so we acted like we were tourists, there were no uniforms and for a certain amount of hours during the day, we would be at the pool or the beach and acting like tourists. I actually never again wore an SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). uniform other than if I was sent on a Mission, in the years after this. I was with LRHL. Ron Hubbard almost all the time and he was in secret locations all of those years. Security was important as we were undercover.

The messengers again stood their normal watches of 6 hours and maybe 9 at times. Now we had fewer messengers so we did not have 3 on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) at once. When we were off watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) we had to be “tourists” but also started to do typing for LRHL. Ron Hubbard, this was now the start of our typing and taking dictation from him. This would become important as a messenger as from this time forward we did not have a large amount of people to “runUndergo processing. (Science of Survival, p.75)” messages to. I had never learnt how to type in my life, and to this day I type very fast with only a few fingers. Management was never again going to be with LRHL. Ron Hubbard it was always going to be far from wherever he was.

The apartment where LRHL. Ron Hubbard lived was quite a high building (10 stories) and he had magnificent views of the ocean from his apartment. I loved going there. He would also take daily walks on the beach and would walk right past the motel, yet the crew at the motel was not supposed to know he was so close by……but he would still walk past and I know people saw him. I think he was invigorated to be in the USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). so there was some excitement about him during this time period.

At one point while we were in Daytona a bunch of outer-Org staff were sent to the motel for “training”, little did they know that LRHL. Ron Hubbard would be training them. These were the last lectures he ever gave and it was during this time that he noted that the TR’s and Metering were not good and he started to overhaul things. I was involved whenever these training sessions went on and would help record them. He would get quite angry at times as the techAbbreviation for technology. The methods of application of an art or science as opposed to mere knowledge of the science or art itself. (HCOB 13 Sep 65) was not in. From what I remember this was to be the start of the training of Super Power which he had been working on, but due to the out-techAbbreviation for technology. The methods of application of an art or science as opposed to mere knowledge of the science or art itself. (HCOB 13 Sep 65) it ended up being an overhaul of the basics of auditingThe application of Scientology processes and procedures to someone by a trained auditor. (Dianetics & Scientology Technical Dictionary (C) 1975). As a result Super Power went on the back burner, but really went on the back burner until only recently.

CLEARWATER & DUNEDIN 1975-1976

LRHL. Ron Hubbard and his staff moved to Dunedin, the next town north of Clearwater (they had rented a few apartments) at the time the rest of the crew all moved to the Fort Harrison. One of the first things I remembering happening is that the GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) had told LRHL. Ron Hubbard that everyone under 16 years of age had to be in school. I was so upset by this because it meant I would no longer be able to stand watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) and, I was terrified of going to a USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). school. I had not been in school for more than 2 years and therefore missed all that time and also our curriculum in South Africa was obviously different.

I spoke to LRHL. Ron Hubbard about this and asked him not to send me to school. I was going to turn 16 in under 6 months anyway so what was the point……he fully agreed with me, so I got out of having to go to school. The younger CMOAbbreviation for Commodore's Messenger Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). staff which included some junior messengers did end up going to school. He told the GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) that I was not going to go. I was so relieved.

Christmas 1975 would go down in SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). history as the Out-2D Xmas Party – by December most of the crew from the Apollo were now all in one place and people had not seen each other for a few months. Now there were also other staff there, like outer-org students and some public. There was a huge party held in the FH. I remember us messengers all getting ready to go to the party with our fashionable long dresses of the time. It was fun getting ready. We went over to the FH Ballroom and there was music and a lot of dancing and alcohol but it ended up that a lot of out-2D amongst many of the crew and some crew with outer org students and paying public. When LRHL. Ron Hubbard found out about this a day or two later there were a lot of people who were in big trouble. I cannot remember if the RPFAbbreviation for 1. Rehabilitation Project Force. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Rehabilitation Project Force has been created by the Commodore so that redemption can occur. (FO 3434) started up again or if it was a while later, but a number of the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). crew were busted at all levels.

Other than standing watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) in Dunedin, some of us also had LRHL. Ron Hubbard projects to do with the setting up of the Fort Harrison and at some point, from my letters, I started handling telexes.

Here are some quotes of my letters to my Mom about this era: Dec 9th 1975 “Since we moved, Flag is really booming, we have 90 FCCI’s (public) on auditingThe application of Scientology processes and procedures to someone by a trained auditor. (Dianetics & Scientology Technical Dictionary (C) 1975) and about 100 outer org students. Also we just got 42 new recruits all in one day sooooo things are sure rolling.” “LRHL. Ron Hubbard let us buy a sewing machine (CMOAbbreviation for Commodore's Messenger Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976).) and it does all kinds of stitches it really is nice. So we are all sewing.” Dec. 26th, 1975 “LRHL. Ron Hubbard is looking fantastic and he really got some great Xmas presents. We spent 7 hours unwrapping them all.” “Cathy Rubio (eventually to be Rinder) has been ranting and raving as to how well both of you are doing at the Franchise, she is very happy with you, and I am proud and happy for you both because you’re doing what you want to do and are doing it like real staff members.” Jan 31st, 1976 “Int statsAbbreviation for statistics. A number or amount compared to an earlier number or amount of the same thing. Statistics refer to the quantity of work done or the value of it in money. (HCO PL 16 Dec 65) are doing very well and LRHL. Ron Hubbard is very pleased. There are a lot of good missions, going to AF, some to the Folo and a few individual orgs.” Feb 2nd, 76 “It is 0527 in the morning and I have just finished handling a whole lot of telex adminA contraction or shortening of the word administration, admin is used as a noun to denote the actions involved in administrating an organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976).. I am now in PT so I decided to write. LRHL. Ron Hubbard secured about 2 hours ago in a very good mood; he was in such a good mood this evening and was joking a lot.” Feb 17th, 1976 “Since we have been land based, the FSO has boomed and is “THE” org on the planet, they are making over ½ a million dollars a week!!. The Commodore is so proud of them. We have got about 150-200 paying public” March 18th, 76 Today our first baby is going to be born on the Flag Landbase)!!! Everyone is so excited. The mother went into labor early this morning and should have it in a couple of hours. Peggy Eastman will be having hers in a few days. There are so many preggies, its really great.”

One point I would like to make here and clear up any misunderstanding. LRHL. Ron Hubbard never advocated for abortions. As far as I know he never wrote any orders or Flag Orders regarding SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). members having abortions. Only what he wrote in DMSMHDianetics the Modern Science of Mental Health. I know of 1 messenger on the ship who had to have an abortion and she made that decision herself, no-one sent her to ethics1. The rules or standards governing the conduct of the members of a profession. (HCO PL 3 May 72). 2. A system of removing the counter-effort to the forward push. (6711C18SO) for handling on this or made her wrong. There were also some couples who left the ship because they decided to keep the baby. Maybe he wrote something before he died when I was not around. If there had been such a “culture” we would not have had the baby boom when we arrived at Flag in the 70’s……..however, I also do know that the cadet org set-up and the way children were treated at all the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). bases in later years, was also very wrong and a real disaster.

Things started to get really hairy in CW, with the local press figuring out who we were (we had a “shore story” when we moved to Clearwater that we were not the Church of Scientology). This was a huge disappointment for LRHL. Ron Hubbard. He really did want to settle down in one place (I don’t mean settle to relax, I mean for him to have a stable place) and be able to operate without being found out that he was there. Plans were being made to renovate and set-up the Penthouse in the FH for him and Mary Sue. In addition to that there were other problems i.e. the Paulette Cooper situation. All I really knew about this is that she had written a book and was the “biggest SPSuppressive Person: 2. a person who rewards only down statistics and never rewards an up statistic. He goofs up or vilifies any effort to help anybody and particularly knifes with violence anything calculated to make human beings more powerful or intelligent. A suppressive automatically and immediately will curve any betterment activity into something evil or bad...More in the world”. Her name was bandied about a lot but I cannot remember the details and if I did, I did not understand them. This had obviously already started when we were on the ship. The local press was now also becoming nosy. The pressure was on the GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I). When I think about all of this, I am sure the GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) were not happy with him coming to the USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). and settling here, I am pretty sure they would have been happier if he had stayed on the ship, but obviously what he wanted to do, he would do.

LRHL. Ron Hubbard had been in pretty good moods through Daytona and now Dunedin, but now all of sudden things were getting “hot” and something happened with a reporter finding out about whom we were. There was an incident about a reporter knocking on a door or managing to get into the FH. Not sure of the details on this but this is when LRHL. Ron Hubbard decided to runUndergo processing. (Science of Survival, p.75) off to DC (early 1976), with Kima and Mike Douglas, Jim Dincalci (Medical Officer) and eventually Gale Reisdorf Irwin. He had no messengers with him during this short period,though David and Claire Rossouw were handling telexes and mail for him at the DC Org but were not in the same location. Gale had been part of the Household Unit (and Kima’s junior) and had to bring an air conditioner from Florida to DC (seems like one could have been bought in DC). Gail asked LRHL. Ron Hubbard while in D.C if she could be a messenger when they returned and he agreed. More about her in later chapters.

Soon after LRHL. Ron Hubbard left Dunedin and relocated to D.C. we continued on with our projects and also got involved with handling his telexes. LRHL. Ron Hubbard actually asked us messengers to write letters to him as he missed us. Below are two of the answers he sent to me. Please understand these are not SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976).#1 letters but actual letters typed by him, there were only 3 people with him and they certainly were not SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976).#1. These are personal letters. You may not understand most of what he is saying. But they are to a 15 year old.

April/May 1976 – In my letters to my Mom I talk about how I was holding the postA position from which a terminal operates in an org, where one knows that somebody is at. (FO 2200) of Personnel in the CMOAbbreviation for Commodore's Messenger Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). Org (HCOHubbard Communications Office (HCO PL 7 Jul 71)), how I was quite good at this! I was in charge1. harmful energy or force accumulated and stored within the reactive mind, resulting from the conflicts and unpleasant experiences that a person has had. Auditing discharges this charge so that it is no longer there to affect the individual. (Scn AD)..more of recruitment & training of future messengers. Well, one of the people I recruited into the CMOAbbreviation for Commodore's Messenger Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). in 1976 was a young guy named David Miscavige. He had joined the SOAbbreviation for Sea Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). and was on the Flag EPFAbbreviation for 1. Estates Project Force. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Estates Project Force handles premises, grounds, cleaning, repair, painting or other maintenance cycles. (FO 3165) and was going to be on the TTC at Flag to become a trained auditor1. one who listens and computes; a Scn practitioner. 2. one who has been trained in the technology of Scn. An auditor applies standard technology to preclears. 3. a person who through church training becomes skilled in the successful application of Dn and Scn to his family, friends and the public to achieve the ability gained as stated on the Gradation Chart for his class of training...more. He was already an auditor1. one who listens and computes; a Scn practitioner. 2. one who has been trained in the technology of Scn. An auditor applies standard technology to preclears. 3. a person who through church training becomes skilled in the successful application of Dn and Scn to his family, friends and the public to achieve the ability gained as stated on the Gradation Chart for his class of training...more but the plan was for him to train further, if I remember correctly. He is the same age as me, in fact born the same month and year. He was extremely well qualified, correct age, already an auditor1. one who listens and computes; a Scn practitioner. 2. one who has been trained in the technology of Scn. An auditor applies standard technology to preclears. 3. a person who through church training becomes skilled in the successful application of Dn and Scn to his family, friends and the public to achieve the ability gained as stated on the Gradation Chart for his class of training...more which was a huge plus as most messengers were not techAbbreviation for technology. The methods of application of an art or science as opposed to mere knowledge of the science or art itself. (HCOB 13 Sep 65) trained and had good character and “spunk”. I remember meeting with him and his Dad, Ron Sr. in an office in the FH. I was waiting for them to come in, and had a large Styrofoam cup of coffee, which I put on the floor next to me. They came in and we sat down for the interview. Before I even started talking, Ron Sr. with a big smile on his face indicated to me that my very high heel was now in the cup of coffee….I was so embarrassed. It was just a funny anecdote that I remember. Dave was very excited of the possibility of working with LRHL. Ron Hubbard. So David was routed onto the CMOAbbreviation for Commodore's Messenger Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). EPFAbbreviation for 1. Estates Project Force. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Estates Project Force handles premises, grounds, cleaning, repair, painting or other maintenance cycles. (FO 3165) in Clearwater. I would not see him again until he eventually made it to La Quinta. Of course, there is way more to this story……..soon after this I disappeared from Fla….

BETA AND ASTRA

LRHL. Ron Hubbard thereafter moved to Culver City in LA from D.C. (this would now be called ASTRA). A few messengers were sent to be with him at Astra. It was a few apartments in a larger complex. I was called to LA from Clewarwater and became part of BETA. Beta was a secret communication1. the consideration and action of impelling an impulse or particle from source point across a distance to receipt point with the intention of bringing into being at the receipt point a duplication and understanding of that which emanated from the source point. (HCOB 5 Apr 73)...more unit for LRHL. Ron Hubbard. Beta would receive and send telexes to LRHL. Ron Hubbard. This unit was manned with messengers: Janis Gillham, Jill Goodman, and me. We worked in the External Communications office of the USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I). We were “undercover”, no-one was supposed to know who or what we were. A small studio apartment was found for us across the road from the Manor and that is where we lived for maybe a month. Janis and Jill were already there when I arrived. It was weird as none of us had ever lived on our own, ever. I was now 16 and Janis and Jill were about 19/20. We had been little girls when we went to the ship and now we had to live by ourselves and also cook our own food etc. One of the things which stuck in my mind3. a network of communications and pictures, energies and masses, which are brought into being by the activities of the thetan versus the physical universe or other thetans. The mind is a communication and control system between the thetan and his environment. (FOT, p. 56)...MORE is cooking dinner one night for the 3 of us and burning the steaks on the stove, there was smoke everywhere! I also remember getting the most extreme callouses on my feet due to the high heeled shoes I was wearing. It became very painful, so my handling for this was to take a blade and try and “shave” off the callouses. All that got me was bloody feet and I battled to walk for about a week. Our jobs were to code and send and receive telexes and mail for LRHL. Ron Hubbard. Jill was the one who mainly did the mail “drops”, whereby she would meet one of the guys from Astra in a parking lot and swap mail packages. Janis and I mainly typed and coded telexes in the USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) Office.

Meanwhile, a communication1. the consideration and action of impelling an impulse or particle from source point across a distance to receipt point with the intention of bringing into being at the receipt point a duplication and understanding of that which emanated from the source point. (HCOB 5 Apr 73)...more center was set-up at Astra with Gary Reisdorf and Gerri Armstrong and Mike Douglas. Once they were up and running, Beta was disbanded as no longer needed. I was then sent to Astra joining the other messengers already with LRHL. Ron Hubbard. Janis and Jill returned to Clearwater where Janis later became the COAbbreviation for 1. Commanding Officer. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The org is commanded by the Commanding Officer (SO orgs). (HCO PL 7 Mar 72) CMOAbbreviation for Commodore's Messenger Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). CW.

At Astra we would stand our watches with LRHL. Ron Hubbard and also be involved with external commSlang, short for - communication. We typed and coded telexes. Our codes used an obscure dictionary (which both sides would have) and if the word you wished to use was the 30th word down and 5thword across on page 100 then that word became “100-30-5”. The key to this coding system was to have a very uncommon dictionary in use on both ends. We only coded key words, but even so it was very time consuming and one could spend hours doing this and then typing the telexes. Same thing would be done with the receiving of telexes, decode and then type up for LRHL. Ron Hubbard. He was very active on management lines during this time.

One day (around July/Aug of 76) LRHL. Ron Hubbard decided he wanted to see “All The Presidents Men”, with Robert Redford, Faye Dunaway and Dustin Hoffman. We got him into some sort of a disguise but the funny thing about his disguises was that he stood out as being a weirdo, with a funny long haired wig and fake mustache. Anyway, we watched it at the Chinese Mann Theater in LA, right near a bunch of ScnAbbreviation for Scientology. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). buildings. He went incognito to not be recognized by Scientologists but he certainly did not look disguised. It was a bit nerve wracking for us who went with him, but he didn’t seem fazed. I got very embarrassed during the love scene of Redford and Dunaway….sitting right next to LRHL. Ron Hubbard was like watching it next to your Grandfather.

During the Astra period I remember one incident quiet clearly. I was on watchEvery member of a ship's company has two general types of activities, one of these is as a member of watches, wherein he handles his duties of steering, lookout, engines, etc., including emergency drills. (FO 1109) by myself with LRHL. Ron Hubbard in his apartment. Kima Douglas had been out driving around, maybe shopping, and she rushed into his apt. in a state and crying because she had witnessed a very bad accident and she was traumatized. LRHL. Ron Hubbard had her recount the incident a number of times in a very casual way and then told her he was going to give her a touch assist. I asked if I should leave and he said no, it is fine that I stay. He started the touch assist but his command was: “Look at My Finger” (with Kima’s eyes being closed). Up until that point, it had always been “Feel My Finger”……..I had thoughts going through my head, like what is going on here?? Once he was done, both Kima and I told him that we had never heard of that command; he momentarily had a confused look on his face (very brief) and then said Oh that is because you would give that command to an OTOperating Thetan - 7. this state of being is attained by drills and familiarity after the state of Clear has been obtained. A real OT has no reactive bank, is cause over matter, energy, space, time and thought and is completely free. (HCOB 12 Jul 65)...More and the other one to someone who was not yet OTOperating Thetan - 7. this state of being is attained by drills and familiarity after the state of Clear has been obtained. A real OT has no reactive bank, is cause over matter, energy, space, time and thought and is completely free. (HCOB 12 Jul 65)...More. We told him that no HCOBHubbard Communications Office Bulletin (technical bulletin) Also colloquially referred to as "red on white" HCOB's are always red ink on white paper. exists where it states that, so immediately he wrote the HCOBHubbard Communications Office Bulletin (technical bulletin) Also colloquially referred to as "red on white" HCOB's are always red ink on white paper. on this very thing.

LA QUINTA

The purchase of our La Quinta properties (in the desert near Palm Springs) were progressing and we were all looking forward to our new home as it was quite stifling in the few apartments we had in Culver City. I was one of the people who was sent ahead to help set-up the properties. The houses were: Palms – to be crew eating and berthing; Olives – a beautiful house for more berthing, the CMOAbbreviation for Commodore's Messenger Organization. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). office and LRHL. Ron Hubbard External Comm, this house had a gorgeous pool with a palm tree in the middle and then LRHL. Ron Hubbard house – Rifle. There were also a few other buildings such as the Stables. My task was to help set-up Rifle for LRHL. Ron Hubbard. These properties were across the road from the La Quinta Golf Resort – they eventually bought our properties (except for Rifle which was privately owned). They expanded the resort and today it is a beautiful golfing location with all those houses still part of the property. I visited in recent years to look at our old houses.

LRHL. Ron Hubbard, and then a little while later Mary Sue arrived to their new home and the next 2 months was one of the best times. Things were quite mellow and LRHL. Ron Hubbard was involved in doing various projects: setting up pathways around the properties and getting date and citrus trees growing well. We were all so excited to be there. There were many rattlesnakes around and that was when he instituted that if any crew member could kill a rattlesnake they would make a bonus, which many did. The messengers were given bicycles as well as the LRHL. Ron Hubbard Ext Comm people, so we could easily get from one house to the next. Due to the rattle snake situation, LRHL. Ron Hubbard ordered us to wear real high leather cowboy boots when we were going from one property to the next, that way if there was a snake and it tried to bite, the leather would protect us.

The LRHL. Ron Hubbard external Comm Unit was now well staffed and we no longer had to be involved with the coding/typing and sending/receiving of his telexes.

Towards the end of 76, in November — it was a morning — a GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) guy, I think it was either Henning Heldt or Duke Snider, just arrived at LRHL. Ron Hubbard’s house, which was highly unusual. I think he was the GuardianThe purpose of the Guardian is: to help LRH enforce and issue policy, to safeguard Scientology orgs, Scientologists and Scientology and to engage in long term promotion. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976).. All of a sudden him and Nikki Freeman (Mary Sue’s Assistant) were in our messenger office (which adjoined LRHL. Ron Hubbard’s) and they had to go in to see LRHL. Ron Hubbard immediately. We tried to stop them as no-one other than MSH or Kima could just walk into his office. They were in a panic. The GOAbbreviation for 1. Guardian's Office. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). The Guardian's Office handles certain publics which are its sole responsibility. These publics are as follows: press relations, government relations, special Guardian group relations, opposition group relations, troublesome relations. (BPL 20 May 70 I) guy went into the office. I was not present but once he left I went in with another messenger and LRHL. Ron Hubbard told us that Quentin was found dead in a car outside of Las Vegas. Possibility was suicide. LRHL. Ron Hubbard was furious, swearing at Quentin that he had F.…ed things up and what had he (Quentin) done to him (LRHL. Ron Hubbard). (Please note that LRHL. Ron Hubbard would hardly ever swear in front of us messengers and definitely did not say the F word in front of us, so that was also shocking to me. ) He was not sad and did not cry or have any of those emotions. It was one of the most terrible days for all of us. Quentin had been missing a week or two prior and no-one had known where he was. LRHL. Ron Hubbard then went to tell Mary Sue what had happened, no-one was in the room when he told her, but she just wailed and wailed and in fact the wailing lasted what seemed like days and weeks to me. It was so terribly sad and she was truly devastated. It was just one of those “big” things in your life that you will never forget. Quentin was such a lovely guy and I always liked him – and yes, he was obsessed with flying and planes.

Lois Reisdorf's Story

MAKING OF A CHILD SCIENTOLOGIST AND SEA ORG MEMBER

MY LIFE WITH LRHL. Ron Hubbard (1973-1980)

PART 3 – LRHL. Ron Hubbard MOVES TO THE USUnited States. (Modern Management Technology Defined (C) 1976). 1975 to end of 1976

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